[He doesn't like the complicated emotions that this conversation elicits. The faint but undeniable guilt that he had not told someone that cared so much for him when his birthday was before the day was almost over. Just because it meant little to him, it didn't mean it would mean nothing to anyone else...]
I want you to answer me honestly, have I upset you by not telling you sooner?
[Just private about some things. Like right now he pauses, just for a moment.]
Admittedly I felt some stormy emotions in my heart, but what I said isn’t just pretty words. It’s your day. You can spend it however you want. You deserve a nice day whether I’m part of it or not, and I’m happy you had a good time today.
I would have liked to have seen you as well, had I thought about the day for even a moment long enough to give you notice. It took until mid-afternoon for me to even realise why Kaeya was doing so much.
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Date: 2022-04-30 11:11 pm (UTC)Happy birthday, firefly. Did you have a good day?
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Date: 2022-04-30 11:15 pm (UTC)[There's a pause, and then another message.]
I didn't keep it from you on purpose. My birthday hasn't been a cause for celebration for me for several years.
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Date: 2022-05-01 12:22 am (UTC)I'm happy that you had a good day. Creating new, fond memories in the present can help alleviate some of the burdens of the past.
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Date: 2022-05-01 07:40 pm (UTC)I want you to answer me honestly, have I upset you by not telling you sooner?
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Date: 2022-05-01 08:20 pm (UTC)[Just private about some things. Like right now he pauses, just for a moment.]
Admittedly I felt some stormy emotions in my heart, but what I said isn’t just pretty words. It’s your day. You can spend it however you want. You deserve a nice day whether I’m part of it or not, and I’m happy you had a good time today.
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Date: 2022-05-04 01:56 pm (UTC)Please accept my apology.
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Date: 2022-05-05 12:34 am (UTC)[He hopes, at least. There is the looming possibility of separation, forgetting.]
It's fine, Diluc. Thank you for telling me, even late now. We can always plan a make up when I see you soon.
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Date: 2022-05-07 09:37 pm (UTC)I love you, Kazuha.
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Date: 2022-05-08 02:19 am (UTC)I'm so happy you're here.
[Another year alive when Diluc might have thrown his life away.]
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Date: 2022-05-11 01:10 pm (UTC)So am I.
And I'm happy to have been able to meet you.